Wednesday, December 28, 2005
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Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Vive l'Smilez!!!
First time going to school in the hols..sad maths remedial..but the 2 hous passed real fast surpringly..my ex-tutor invited me to her bbq at her new residence..the bbq is this evening..but mengting is away..i would feel damn extra if i attend alone..but it would be really AP if i just come up with a lame excuse and reject it..so i said sure i'll be there..but i really hate to go..finally i made up my mind and told a stupid excuse and that i would pay her a vist with mengting when she comes back..there a couple of reasons for not going..the main reason is that i dun wanna feel extra..the lil kids there are quite nice people..but the older ones..
Feel much more ready for school reopening after the "warm-up exercise" this morning..at least school is not that unfamiliar now..hafta go buy some cloth for the DI thingie and stuff for the class notice board when jj comes back..hardly have much time left for real fun..feel like watching initial D..the new movie starred by Jay Chou..but movie tix are damn ex now..sigh..
Oh dear..i've only completed one english article review out of four..and i dont know what i can do to my half done chinese essay..I'm addicted to the pinball game in my phone this hols..and the addiction is contagious..my mum got addicted to it too..so the two of us have been busy competing against each other to clinch the top position on the "highscore" list...my mum just broke my record of 32000 on sunday with a score of 62000 and now we have to get at least 32000 to get into top 5...
Dunno how to write the physics reflection which i should be working on now..i shall keep it anonymous i guess..since my physics is in such a sorry state..
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
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Sunday, June 19, 2005
Vive l'Smilez!!!
Nice father's day..had a hard time shopping for a gift for my dad..ended up buying a shoe bag from plaza sing...cuz wanna encourage him to go to the gym more often..i shall really applause for myself today..i actually cooked lunch for my parents..obviously it wasnt some elaborate cuisine..just simple fried rice..i warned my parents infinite times yesterday that food cooked my me is bound to taste yucky..so i any how grabbed some stuff at carrefour..some mushroom of course..some cucumber..tomato..sausage..and thats all..but my god it turned out more than merely "edible"!! Especially after i added egg and tomato sauce to the rice..it smelled great..shall i call that a secret recipe of my mine..?? School is reopening in a week's time..with 3 tests as a welcome-back-gift...really appreciate it..physics is driving me nuts..by now i still dont know what is "time-base"..didn't know one month can pass so fast..wanna slack at home for good.. at least there's a long weekend after week one..youth day..maths remedial next tues..feel like giving it a miss..missed an awesome autograph session at J8 yesterday..Daniel Zhang..too bad jj's not in town..no one else is interested to go all the way from east to west just for that i guess..we would never scream or go there to get a place nearer to the stage at 6 am..just love to see how high and hilarious young people can get........
Sunday, June 19, 2005
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Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Vive l'Smilez!!!
More than half of the holiday has passed unconsciously..but who cares..hols are even worse than school days it seems..at least u can leave ur brains at home when u go to school and dream in class..u only have to do some work after u come back from school and during the test..but during hols..u are with ur brain whole day long..not that you want it..esp for people like me, who are forbidden from going out..but one thing good about this hols is that i finally started doing SOMETHING to my o's..couldnt believe it my god..i have completed 3 setss of emaths papers..2 sets of amaths paper..3 sets of chem papers and 2 sets of physics papers..amazing huh..i've been soooooooo industrious is mainly cuz i doubt i stand any chance for DSA into hwa chong...just saw on the papers today that over 300 students applied for DSA into hwa chong and i estimated that they will only take in 150 applicants at most..am i amongst the top 50% of the applicants?? hahax...jj is certainly having a REAL holiday in China..she's been asking me to call her..and i've called once las week with my mum's permission.. then days ago she did something really amazing with i was greatly astounted by..so she asked me to call her to tell me the whole story.. i waited for the rare chance of being at home alone..in the end i called her up just a few minutes ago and goodness..she told me she was taking neoprints..and the calling card only had 19 minutes plus left..thats definitely not enough for a usual chat..i knew my mum is going to question me when she uses the card...just as predicted..i used up the entire 19minutes..then i felt like a thief who has just committed a theft..that guilt was really a burden sinking into every grooves of the brain..really..im not exaggarating at all..so i was thinking shall i just dump it into a bin and make my mum think that its lost?? no no..my mum knows me too well..the prob here is that my dad is not in town again and if he was the one who finds out that the credit is now 0..he wont realize the irony since he rarely pays any attention to such matters..but my mum..its a completely different case..or shall i admit to her?? then she''ll never trust ne and leave me alone again and will think that i always do "illegal" things behind her back..so how.. i used an eraser to erase the last number of the pin..so that the next time she uses it..she'll be informed that the pin is incorrect...but thats not an ingenious idea at all..the pin is in 3 groups of 4 digits..i should have erased the first digit to make it less obvious..but no matter which digit is erased my mum will sense aomething fishy tho she may not think im behind it and certainly it is not a right thing to do at all..i dont know how am i going to tolerate the guilt when i see my mum using this card..can i say im sorry? no use writing it down here...
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
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Thursday, May 26, 2005
Vive l'Smilez!!!
Wow..havent been updating my blog recently, mainly cuz i hav lost interest in it i guess and find it rather meaningless..just came back fr the mjc/tkss choir concert, my god it was a total blast, now i know where our dhs choir stands..hahaha..today was a mess..i decided to skip bio afternoon class cuz i was having flu..but mainly cuz sim's face is not that pleasant and i want to go out and have some fun before the concert..i already felt very proud of myself when i decided to write her a letter of "apollogy" (?)...but hu knows..after i stepped out of the school xmx called me up and said told me that i'd need to fill up a from from the G.O in order to be excused from the school..so i went back..got a from..and needed HOD's signature..then unfortunately only miss Ling was there..then she called my mum up..luckily my mum knew i was having since this morning..but too bad couldnt go out liaoz..sadness..heard a piece of "good" news today..it's SUPPOSED to be great, but i dun find myself liking it very much tho..and that's wierd wierd...a far cry from what i had imagined.. nvm..
Thursday, May 26, 2005
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Saturday, May 07, 2005
Vive l'Smilez!!!
MISS
v.
1. to fail to hit, catch, find, meet, touch, hear, see, etc.
2. to avoid or escape from (something unpleasant)
3. to feel sorry or unhappy at the sbsence or loss of
4. to discover the absence of loss of
n.
1. a failure to hit, catch, hold, etc., whatever is aimed at
n.
1. a title placed before the name of an unmarried woman or girl
2. a title placed before the name of a place or activity which a young woman has been chosen to represent, usu. for reasons of beauty
Saturday, May 07, 2005
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Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Vive l'Smilez!!!
Perhaps it's coz of the oven-like weather these days that i get pissed so easily..i always feel that it's the pissed person who's at fault not the person who pissed he/she off..too busy nowadys to take care of small little thingies..sorry to the people around me i guess..gotta have a last and final practice for my 2.4 tonight..nice to lead a fulfilling life..unlike last year..............quite glad that i MAY be getting a hp finally next week..if that mother's day essay gets published..if that is...and now im deciding between Nokia 6020 and sony ericsson k300..i prefer the nokia one in terms of design..but the ericsson one has mp3 feature (rather useless anw..only has a 12MB memory..)..but i would not want to buy a nippon product...hahax..i shall get the cash first then decide..dun want to get disappointed coz of myself..
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
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Saturday, April 16, 2005
Vive l'Smilez!!!
Last night was really great..havent been having fun for years..after school i went home to have dinner..and then accompanied jj to the clinic..my goodness..the doctor was so seh..since he couldn't speak chinese so i acted as the spokes-person of jj..i told him jj was suffering from throat infection..and blahblah..then at the end i asked him what actually resulted in all these problems..and guess what he answered-"throat infection"...-_- And guess what medicine he prescribed..antibiotics, painkiller and some throat soothing medicine..looks like any tom, dick or harry can become a clinician nowadays..and it cost her 22 bucks..anyway..after the clinic trip i pulled jj along to get a hair cut..the weather is damn hot nowadays..my hair really needs a trim..and i mean TRIM.. walked all the way to marine parade promenade..the first hair solon i saw was a stylish and rather well furnished one..i wanted to go in till i saw the price-$28.. No way..way too ex..i need to save up after just having received $66 from the ntuc thingie..yep i've always been super stingy..:p..next to this solon was another one..this one is damn old fashioned but the price was really attractive-$9..so without even lookig at the name of the solon (is it a solon anw..??) i went inside..the "hairstylists" were all malays and chit chatting away outside their shop..they looked really surprised when i went in..one of them asked me "you want to cut botak??"...then the person asked me what hairstyle i wanted to cut..then i said just cut short a bit..layer it and preferably cut my fringe as well..he looked very confident. My God..he didnt even know how to clip up my hair according to the layers..and they only had shavers and ONE pair of scissors and NO comb..i couldnt understand what the malay man said to me..neither could he understand what i was talking about. THEN i FINALLY realized what was actually going wrong..i went into a "BARBER shop"!!!!!!!!! there were only men there getting hair cut and pictures of only male models..i almost wanted to scream and get out of there right away..i couldnt stand what he had done to my hair..it ended up looking like a mushroom head..i told him i wanted it to be still tie-able..and...nvm..i told myself..tan xiao pian yi and thats the result.. hahahahaha..then jj was laughing like hell lol..and i was pleading her to please please please help to do something to make my hair at least presentable..so we went pp to get a comb that can be used to trim hair..i had to do some rescue work before my mum sees it..we had a hard time deciding where we should go to let jj trim my hair and finally decided on---PP B1 toilet (!!!!!!)..i know it sounds yucky..but no other choice what..i had to wet my hair..so i got that step done in the toilet basin..people thought we were either lunatics or les..then.. we went into a cubicle to do the rescue work..hahax..and jj was really pro man... though my hair became damn short but at least its presentable now..at least i wasnt ridiculed by anyone at school this morning..the toilet bowl was full of hair and the floor was in a mess too..i fret that we couldnt get the place cleaned up before leaving..honestly..i dont like my new hairstyle very much..jj insists that its very nice very nice..i look as though i have "aged" a few years over night..but funny though..most people that i met today said i look better with short hair..hahax..are they serious or not..i shall stop complaining abt my hair..it'll grow back sooner or later..but that experience was really unforgettable..sometimes we just have to try out new things to "feel" new feelings
Saturday, April 16, 2005
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Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Vive l'Smilez!!!
What can u do in response when someone is torturing u continuously and deliberately..i cant stand the suffocation any more!!!! And i dont know how to voice out my pain..and no one is there to listen..obviously i cant tell her.. How how how how..this cant go any further.. help!!!!! Save me!!!!! I shall consult ppl who have gone through the same torments..but how..??? help help help help help..aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...My endurance has a limit lol..can i be granted just one day of break?? One day is more than enough for me..and i need it deperately..
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
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Wednesday, April 06, 2005
Vive l'Smilez!!!
I damn happy today lol!!!! Happy Happy Happy Happy!!!!!!! My essay finally got published on friday weekly!!!!! I cant believe it myself either!! But just a little sad that it didnt get published a week earlier..but nvm..hahax.. :D Hope no one knows that essay is written by me actually..glad that i didnt use my real name.. One good thing is that im a step closer to my future hp..i guess i'd need at least nine more steps..
During CME today..Mr Kiw suddenly called a few ppl to ask how they can link their names to the word "ren2 (people+ two)"..he picked those whom he thinks have names that have connection with the word. Then oh no..he called me..and asked is "zhao" ur surname?? So duh lol..And i was damn stunned..how am i supposed to link "rui" with "ren"..and i was sort of wondering what does "ren" mean anw..then i started crapping my "rui" has a "wang" which has three horizontal strokes and "ren" has two horizontal strokes..hahahaha..so stupid right..then he cldnt stand it and stopped me saying," I can see that u dont know how to link ur name to 'ren'."..Kiw is..he definitely loves my surname..
Another thing that is worth celerbrating is that i finally succeeeded!!! Yep congratulate me..
Departures are never happy, but u have to remember that u are just a tourist..And..you'll be fine.
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
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Monday, April 04, 2005
Vive l'Smilez!!!
What a magnificent day i had today..or shall i use another word today..rosy day..??? Hahax..crapped some damn blabbery nonsense at the yanjiang com today..wow..didnt expect myself to get into the finals in the first place..so how could i have won??!!! So..i didnt have much confidence in myself before the com..i guess i must have looked like a ridicule on stage..but well..i love my topic..rose..how romantic huh..why i say that today was a "magnificent" is sort of cuz my topic actually links well with the rest of the events in the day..no no no no no..of course nothing "romantic" happened..but funny things just pop up like roses..damn cute..:D Just realized that if we really wanna do something or say something we should just do it or say it loud..hesitation is pointless and stupid..if we just sit there and watch the opportunity slip away..regret is the only thing that we will get in return for our desire..sad..but its the fact..miracles wont fall from the sky for nothing..it seems like i know all those crap but..but am i doing things the way it says--just do it (advertising for Nike)?? I doubt it lol..Have been making so many mistakes recently..many of which are repeated ones..and the prob it that i dont learn. But what is supposed to be missed and what is not?? I have so much to say..but i dont know how to express myself.. whether in english, chinese, malay, tamil, french, german, japanese...(...) I hate the things that i post on blog..
Monday, April 04, 2005
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Thursday, March 31, 2005
Vive l'Smilez!!!
Consider this: A guy and a girl were deeply in love, they had never quarreled, however recently, both of them had found new love, they did this just because they love each other too much..he's with another girl and she's with another guy..but they think they are still in love with each other. One day, the girl was hospitalized. The guy was happily on a shopping spree with his new love, forgetting all about his girlfriend. On the way to the hospital to visit the girl, the girl's new love dropped by at a shopping centre to get her some daily necessaties and a bouquet of roses. Don't know if this is called fate, the guy ran into the guy (the first one) with his new girl outside the cinema in the shoppng centre ..by the way..all the 4 of them know each other..(i guess all the 4 of them are lunatic)..so the guy was really shocked at the fact that guyA didnt seem to show any concern towards his ill girlfriend..(they are really mad huh..)..then the guy passed all the stuff he had bought for the girl to guyA and suggested that he should pay his girlfriend a visit..and rushed off..But who knows..that guy went ahead into the cinema for movies with his new love..
The poor girl had been lying in the hospital all the while thinking,"Where is he, I don't need him (the new "love") to take care of me..i only want HIM to come here and take a look at my present state..and let me feel his love for one last time....." She broke down.
I find this story rather touching..though it sounds damn wierd and contradicting..u need to get urself DEEP into the story in order to understand it.. :D
Thursday, March 31, 2005
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Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Vive l'Smilez!!!
Looks like im making things real obvious now..it's ok..whats the use of blog anw..and it doesnt concern me any more..so..why should i bother..hahahahaha..I have been feeling an unknown sense of uncertainty and curiosity towards today for months..expected today to be a really "special" day..It's just like the reason why i hate my own birthday..always expect my birthday to be the most special day of the year..always take that for granted..but year after year..i disappointed myslef..ended up realizing it's just like any other ordinary day..it's merely one of the days out of the 365 days in the year..expect that i called it "birthday".. I had the same expectation for today..though it's not my birthday..I thought very HIGHLY of today..that's why i insist on blogging today whether alive or dead, i know i wont be able to go online at home..so i shall do it in the school library. Decided to call it a day early last night..cuz i didnt want to sense, hear and watch "today" approaching..the agony was a torment. I struggled hard to put myself to sleep..counted sheeps and cows..guess i did fall asleep before 12am eventually. I was in the midst of my dreams when i heard my handphone ringing and vibrating beside me..i left the phone turned on last night just in case another blow of earthquake comes cuz i dont want to miss another one after having missed 2..when the earthquake struck the night befire last jj called me up but so sad i switched of my phone and slept through the "fun"..seriously i dont know how i will feel and react if i really sense an earthquake, esp for the first time, my immaturity makes me think it's "fun" but i guess i will paniic like hell if it really happens..jj told me her experience of the earthquake..it truly wasnt what i imagined..according to her description, everything was in chaos and people felt a sense of uncertainty and insecurity..no one knew what was going to happen..is tsunami the next thing that will follow? Will another blow of earthquake follow? What if all the buildings tumble down and we get buried alive in the debris? It is only when this kind of things happen that we know who are the ones most important to us..it's actually a test to reveal our innermost thoughts that even we ourselves never knew of. That's why i sort of WANTED to experience an earthquake..i mean a slight one..such minor shakes wont do much harm i guess..or maybe im wrong..(?) I shall swing back to last night..yep..jj called me up..i thought i should be near dawn already..but surprisingly it was only 1214pm..gosh..it's 30th march now..that was the first thing that came into my mind after i stepped out of dreamland entirely..we talked for about 50 minutes or so..i didnt worry about the numbers on my phone bills shooting up for once..coz i no longer felt like sleeping on such a day which was supposed to be "special"..ok..the day started off "special"..at least i wasnt doing what i usually do..the next morning..this morning..i woke up feeling extraordinarily awake..and completed my morning routine in seconds. Came to school afraid to see "special" things that i prefer to not to see..then i realized that i forgot to bring my pencil case.hahahahahax..and i have bio test today..just went to Katong park for CIP..ending up having fun in the playgrounf over there..the person in charge was no where around and Mdm Loh didnt care much.."banana boat" was fun..wow..we were like eggs getting fried in a pan..bumping up and down..then i tried the swings..i havent touched them for ages and i sort of miss them..i love that feeling..when i rose higher and higher into the sky..felt the winding blowing into my face..heard the thunder which sounded like applause amazingly..had the "top of the world feeling" instantly..."it's really a 'special' day!!!!"..i literally shouted that out..sorry to people who thought i was insane.. I didnt want to go to the canteen during recess today..but i still went cuz all the comps in the library were occupied then.
"Today" is almost ending..i just regained my consciousness and realized that i have no right to feel this sense of "speciality" at all..and the page shall turn after today.
Today is 30th March 2005.
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
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Wednesday, March 23, 2005
Vive l'Smilez!!!
I resign. My god..my cousin just killed me..cant stand her..i could die coz of that and im ald dead i guess..i dont care any more..and i shant..it's none of my business now..why should I fret so much anw? Who cares who cares..game over. And now my msn just clashed..what is happening huh.. ok i said i shant care. But i still pray that god would stay on my side..Im gonna change my daily routine..my perspective of life and all..from today..it's a bit late though but late is always better than never. I've become smarter huh? I've gone too far..how am i going to retrieve my old self and all things i have lost along the way..along the way..
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
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Tuesday, March 22, 2005
Vive l'Smilez!!!
Let it be
Just let it be
What is done can never be undone
Want the planet to turn the other way round just for you?
No way!!!!
Wondering why you are you?
I wonder why
Let the hour hand go in an anti-clockwise direction
Allow the minute hand to head in its original direction
Time, STOP for me
Yet, REWIND for me
Now, PLAY!!!!!
Play a song of an unfamiliar voice
How I wish..
How I wish
It would play on forever
Just for me
STOP []
REWIND<<>
Why are there always retrictions
Interruptions
And Obstacles?
What about PAUSES?
It is merely an obstacle race
To be frank.
It's ok
I shall be the loser
If being the winner really makes you feel so good
Cross the finishing line
And you'll be the top of the world.
It's ok
Im fine.
Look at me
Here am I still at the starting line
Tying my shoe lace.
There you go,
With your shimmery medal.
I will still cheer for you
LOUD
Definitely.
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
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Saturday, March 19, 2005
Vive l'Smilez!!!
Spent almost two hours last night staring at the same old sky..yah..im not that kind of boliao person who'd admire stars and moons out of no reason..guess im really going crazy..there're certain things that i just don't know how to accept..like..getting choked by a tomato pie..the "stare" was actually rather fruitful..I saw a meteor first time in all the 15 years of my life!!!! Can you believe it? A meteor!!! I was totally stunned when i saw it flying past..and before i could recollect what actually was happening and make a wish..it vanished into thin air..but that was just too coincidental and magical..why did i see my first meteor on such a day..Half an hour later..a pink cloud in the shape of a mushroom was floating in the sky..my goodness..the night sky went crazy with me..
Saturday, March 19, 2005
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Friday, March 18, 2005
Vive l'Smilez!!!
Gosh!!!!!!! What a beautiful night it was!!!!!!!!!!!! Damn happy happy happy happy happy happy happy!!!!!!!!!!!! I decided to sleep without the air-con turned on..breezy nights are so rare in march..then i was determined to let the dj read out my dedication..coz they havent been reading any of mine for ages!!! Felt reali high..the most wonderful thing to do on earth is lie in bed..listen to the radio and sms ur best buddy..hahax i was laughing like hell when i heard jj's dedication..it was goshly comical and hahax i love the third sentence!!!!!!!!
Gosh dead now..heard some shocking news..dead dead dead..cant take it..AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How??? Think i shall stop playing with fire..it's getting dangerous..seriously should..haiz...hopeless me..
Friday, March 18, 2005
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Thursday, March 17, 2005
Vive l'Smilez!!!
Treat me to a ride on your carousel,
Here goes the bell,
Listen to my yell!
Haha heavenly life is coming to an end..sadness man..but seems that we can find substitutes in whatever aspects in life..
Thursday, March 17, 2005
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Wednesday, March 16, 2005
Vive l'Smilez!!!
Po-ko-ship-ta! Po-ko-ship-ta!!! This is not deliberate imitation, but an uncertain hidden reply..sorry..po-ko-ship-ta says it all..
Feel rather guilty for leaving dazu early today, it was the last dazu for us and all the com members were feeling damn sad..i just left like that without even making an effort to help to clear up the stage and why did i do this..not for pleasure actually..but.for what..i really dont know for sure.jj and i juz went to the mountbatten road busstop and we decided to board any bus that will come first and take it to the interchange at the other end of Spore..I've been wanting to do that for quite some time already..ever since we took the bus to and fro clementi to search for my lost handphone....crazy huh..but couldnt fork out 2hrs..It definitely wasnt for FUN..but what was it for..i really have no idea as i have said..
4 years in cs..i do have regrets..hav to admit that it's not the most ideal cca for me..but i've learnt a load from it..thanks cs..
Gosh..i've been writing damn hell unmeaningful..or rather meaningless..blog entries recently..sighz at myself lahx..
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
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Saturday, March 12, 2005
Vive l'Smilez!!!
Another blog entry deleted. Guess i have deleted 4 or 5 entries in all..all those that i published recently..when i read them a few days later..i'd juz delete em..
This cant go on any longer..
The sun is setting and the moon is emerging..
People are heading back
And you are still there
Waiting and waiting
You know you will end up with nothing in the end
But you insist on trying your luck
Though you have been warned that luck would never be on your side.
You tell yourself this is a bet
It's either a win or loss-50:50
If you dont give it a try
It'd be 0.
So you stay there
Rooted to the ground
Like an old stubborn tree.
People come and go
Time follows.
Spring was here a moment ago
And now it's cold winter
When is the snow going to melt
To reveal the lush greenery beneath?
When can you grow back your leaves?
When can you bloom once more?
Your are waiting
Still waiting..
I told you to give up
You turned a deaf ear.
It's pointless, i said
You replied, you will let go when time admits defeat.
Can I go now??..Taking you with me??
Saturday, March 12, 2005
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